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  "Are you protected? Do I need to wear a condom?"

  "I'm on the pill. We're okay."

  For a minute, I hesitated. I thought back to why I was on the pill and what had happened to make me make sure that no babies would be arriving anytime soon. When I felt hot tears start to sting my eyes, I tried hard to blink them away before he saw the raw pain come to the surface. I was too late.

  "Baby, whatever that brought to your mind, I'm so sorry. I see the pain waiting there, so don't try to hide it. I'm not gonna do what he did. I'm not him, and I never will be. Let me show you."

  One tear betrayed me and fell down my face, but he licked it off, then planted a kiss in that spot. He kissed me slowly and sweetly as a couple more tears fell out. He settled the weight of his large body over me and positioned himself between my legs.

  He entered me gently, not hurried, and pushed in inch by inch until he couldn't go any farther. He didn't move from that spot and instead traced kisses down my jaw and onto my neck. He pulled out slowly, then moved his hips and pushed back in. He continued this pace, only taking his eyes from me long enough to plant kisses on every spot of my body that he could reach without pulling out.

  It was obvious that he knew exactly what he was doing, but he didn't do it in a way that was offensive or overbearing. His hips moved perfectly, finding just the right spot inside of me over and over again. I wrapped my legs around his back, wanting to pull him in as closely as I could. I knew there was no guarantee that this would ever happen again, so I was going to take full advantage of it. Plus, I wanted to have something that would push away all memories of Mason for a while.

  "Baby, you feel so good. You're so wet for me. I want to be inside you for as long as I possibly can. I knew you would be amazing, but this is beyond that. I want to make you come again."

  Before I could respond, he upped the pace of his thrusts, pinning me down onto the bed with his hips. I moved myself in unison every time he entered me, and I was starting to feel the familiar burn inside again. My nails dug lightly into his back as I tried to hold on.

  "Austin, fuck me. You feel so good. I'm so close!"

  With a few more thrusts, I was done, and I clung to him as I found my release. Not long after, he pushed into me hard and spilled himself into me. When he was done, he rolled off of me and pulled me close to him. We were both out of breath and covered in sweat, but it didn't matter in that moment. It felt good to be wrapped in his arms, and for once it wasn't too hard for me to push Mason away when I felt so safe.

  "Jamie, excuse my language, but that was fucking perfect. Girl, I haven't had anyone make me feel like that in a long time."

  "I feel the same way. You made me forget about everything but you and what you were making me feel. Thank you."

  I moved my face toward his so I could kiss him. It was a sweet, lingering kiss that I had only ever exchanged with someone I loved before. That was scary because I didn't think I ever wanted to give my heart to anyone again. It was too scary. Too painful. Too much of a risk that my heart would never recover from.

  "Your face just changed. Is everything okay? What's going on in that pretty head of yours?"

  I didn't want to ruin this great moment with confessions of my sad past, even though he already knew some of it.

  "I'm fine. Just trying to enjoy the moment. Nights like this have been nonexistent lately. I usually spend my nights curled up with a book and the Hallmark Channel. I might even eat a lot of ice cream. Doesn't that sound attractive?"

  I felt him laugh against me since there was nothing between us.

  "Hey, if that's what makes you happy, I think it's hot. Honesty is the most attractive quality in a woman. I'd rather have you tell me exactly who you are than you hide things. Don't be so hard on yourself."

  I leaned up and kissed him again. This man seemed too good to be true, but it was nice to have a man be open and not have to pry things out of him.

  "You might be sorry that you said that eventually. I can be pretty scary. Plus, I have so much baggage."

  "We all have baggage. I've been ripped apart before and I've broken a couple of hearts. I think that's all a part of the journey to find the person that creates the right balance with you. When you're with the person that was meant for you, there's less drama and less effort. Of course you have to work at it to keep it fresh, but you don't question things as much."

  "I sort of agree with you, but I don't know if I believe that effortless love exists. I think there is always one person who is more invested in the relationship. One person who ends up being more broken when it ends. I thought I found that perfect love, and I ended up so torn apart that I'm still recovering. I want to believe in happily ever after, but I've seen too much to be that naive."

  "I get that, Jamie, but you need to leave your heart open. Even just a little bit. If you try to push everyone away, you might miss out on the one that will make the past hurts all worth it."

  I sighed at his words. I wanted to be able to fall in love again. I didn't want to grow old alone and be bitter because someone ruined it for me.

  "You're right, Austin. But it's going to take a really special man to prove that trying again is worth it."

  "Well, maybe you need to open your eyes and see what is right in front of you. I already know just from tonight that I'm feeling that this is much more than a one-night thing. I want to get to know you. I want to prove to you that you can be happy again."

  I wasn't sure I trusted my response to that. I was feeling vulnerable and didn't want to jump into anything I might regret later. At that moment, though, I wanted to feel something more from him. He was already lying on his back, so I got up and straddled him. He had a little smile on his face, but his eyes were burning in anticipation.

  I rubbed myself back and forth against his semi-hard cock, enjoying the feeling it brought me each time my clit made contact with his soft skin. When he was ready, I reached down and grabbed his shaft by the base. Positioning it at my opening, I let myself slide slowly down on it. Despite the fact that he had just been inside of me, this angle made it seem even bigger. I savored every inch as I lowered myself until I couldn't go down anymore. Then I lifted up again and pushed down harder, grinding my hips so that my clit rubbed against his pelvis.

  "Jamie, you look so fucking beautiful right now. Your pussy feels so tight and wet. I love that you're taking control, baby. I want to watch you drive yourself wild."

  His hands moved to my tits, kneading them in his bag hands and then pinching my nipples. I leaned forward a bit to kiss him, still tasting myself on his tongue. When I moved my face from his and sat up a bit, he moved up to put one of my breasts in his mouth. His tongue sucked my nipple slowly, giving it a little nibble and making me cry out. He pushed my tits together so he could lick them both at once, and I closed my eyes to let the feelings take over.

  When I sat back up for a different angle, his thumb moved to my clit and started to rub small circles around it. I started bouncing up and down on him as hard as I could. To return the favor, I reached behind me and started to rub his balls. We were both moaning loudly, and our eyes were locked. I couldn't look away from him because his face was reflecting every bit of passion and lust that I was feeling.

  "Baby, I'm getting so close. I want you to come with me. I want to watch you lose it all over my cock, and I want to shoot my hot cum inside of you."

  His free hand had a firm grip on my hip as he guided me up and down on his cock. I concentrated on the sensations that were building. I wanted to make him come. I wanted to feel him shoot inside of me and leave a part of him behind. With a few more movements, I lost it.

  "Austin! Baby, I'm coming! Come with me!"

  With those words, he thrust up inside of me hard and spilled himself deep inside of me. He was moaning so deep that it almost sounded like a growl. I kept moving over him until he stilled, and then I leaned forward to rest my head on his chest.

  "That was amazing. I hope you don't mind me taki
ng over. I just didn't know what to say so I thought I would show you. And I'm so glad I did."

  "I didn't say all of that expecting you to say anything. I was just speaking from my heart. And that was fucking incredible. I don't deserve someone as sweet and hot as you. Watching you move above me like that was amazing. I wish you could see what I see."

  "Maybe someday. Right now, I'm exhausted."

  "Well, if it's all right with you, I'd rather not sleep alone. I want to hold you tonight. Again, I'm not expecting anything, I just want to have you right here next to me when I wake up."

  I was so glad he said that because I didn't want to go. I didn't want to break the spell. A tiny part of me was worried that I would wake up and everything would be different, but I pushed it away.

  "I would love to stay with you. I don't want this night to be over. You made me so happy tonight, Austin."

  "Well I plan to keep doing it, babe."

  I kissed him and smiled. We both got up to use the bathroom and brush our teeth, then we got back into bed naked. I laid on my left side, and he spooned me from behind. I was so spent from the emotional roller coaster of a day and the sex we had just had that I was asleep quickly.

  When I woke up, I was still in the same spot I had fallen asleep in. Austin's arm was draped around my waist and he was snoring quietly. I had to pee pretty badly, so I carefully removed his arm and got up. I found one of his t-shirts sitting on a chair and slipped it on. I liked that he was so much bigger than me, making the shirt hang to the middle of my thighs. I walked quietly to his bathroom and shut the door. I took care of business then brushed my teeth again. I took a peek in his medicine cabinet and was relieved to see that it looked completely normal. No crazy prescriptions or other women's makeup.

  I was thirsty, so I made my way to the kitchen. I poured myself a glass of orange juice and went into the living room to look around. I had been in there the night before, but I was preoccupied. The house was obviously decorated by a man, but it was clean and simple. The furniture was black leather, and there was a large flat screen TV on one wall over a brick fireplace. There were hundreds of DVDs on one wall that were in alphabetical order, and most of them were action movies.

  On the opposite wall, there were several pictures. I didn't recognize any of the people in them, but I could tell that the young woman in the one picture had to be his sister. There was another one with Austin and an older man and woman that must have been his parents. One frame had several smaller pictures in it, and they were all of kids. Maybe they were his nieces and nephews. The very last picture on the wall was of a beautiful brunette standing in front of Austin with his arms wrapped around her. I could see a large diamond ring on her left hand. She was breathtaking, and they both looked so happy. I was stunned.

  Seeing that picture immediately brought a ton of questions to my mind. She must have been his fiancé, but where was she now? How could they look so happy and not be together anymore? I felt my walls starting to go back up as I contemplated this gorgeous woman's place in his life. Who was she? Where was she? If they weren't together anymore, then why was this picture still on the wall?

  I didn't have much time to think before I heard footsteps coming down the stairs. I quickly moved away from the wall of pictures and went into the kitchen. I wasn't ready to face what I had just seen, and I didn't want to ruin the night before by being too nosy.

  "Hey, babe. What are you doing up already? You should have woken me up."

  "I had to pee and I was thirsty, so I just helped myself. I hope you don't mind."

  "Of course not. Make yourself at home. I thought maybe we could get dressed and I could take you out to breakfast before I take you home."

  "That sounds great. I'm starving."

  "Good. I know the perfect place. What do you think about showering together?"

  I immediately felt something start to stir in me as he moved closer. He was only wearing his boxer briefs, and I was in nothing but his t-shirt. He grabbed me by the waist and pulled me close, letting me feel that his cock must have gotten up before him.

  "I love seeing you in my t-shirt."

  He reached down to grab my ass, and a look of amusement crossed his face when he found that I was naked underneath. The amusement quickly turned to lust as he moved his hand between my legs, rubbing me in just the right way.

  "You're killing me. So wet already. Maybe the shower can wait."

  He turned me around so that I was leaning against the counter, pulling the shirt up to reveal my bare ass. Then he surprised me by getting on his knees behind me, spreading my legs apart, and burying his face in my pussy. I had to hold onto the counter to keep from falling. He used his hands to spread me wide open while he stuck his tongue inside of me. His thumb rubbed my clit then moved inside of me when his tongue went to my clit. I was already seeing stars as this big man worshipped my most intimate parts on his kitchen floor. I was shocked when his tongue travelled back even further and started to lick my most forbidden hole. He slid two fingers inside of me, rubbed my clit, and licked my ass. Within seconds, I screamed out his name and came all over him. I never knew having my ass licked could feel so good.

  Austin didn't give me any time to recover before he was on his feet. He thrust his hard cock into me from behind, placing his hands on my hips to hold me in place.

  "Fuck, Austin. Your cock feels so good right after I come."

  "Baby, you have no idea how good it felt to just push inside of you while you were still getting off. I almost came right away."

  He started pounding into me hard. Gone was the gentle lovemaking from the night before, and I was fine with that. I was ready to be fucked hard like a bad girl. I could see his reflection in the microwave, and his muscular arms looked amazing as they held me firmly in place. He was flexing his jaw in concentration, and I was just holding on and letting him have me. It didn't take long for him to lose control, and he pressed his fingers into me hard when he came.

  "Baby, look what you do to me. I can't hold myself back when it comes to you. You're so sexy."

  "You're the sexy one. I can't get enough."

  He spun me around after he pulled out and kissed me deeply. He led me to the shower where we both cleaned up quickly. He stayed in the bathroom for a few minutes while I went into his bedroom to get dressed. I used the emergency deodorant, perfume, and lotion in my purse. Then I threw my hair up into a knot on my head and put on some lip gloss. I slipped into the clothes from the night before, feeling a little bit guilty that I was about to do the walk of shame, but it was worth it.

  When I was just about ready, Austin's phone starting ringing from the table by his bed. It was a country love song that I recognized from karaoke at the bar. Going over to grab it so I could bring it to him, I reached down to unplug it. I stopped in my tracks when I saw the screen. There was a picture of the same girl from the wall downstairs. The screen flashed with the name Andrea. Whoever this woman was, she certainly wasn't in the past. She was on his wall, in his phone, and most likely still in his heart. I was devastated.

  I decided against bringing him the phone and quickly moved away from the table. I decided that I would just enjoy breakfast, go home, and never let him take me out again. Probably never even talk to him again. Maybe Austin wasn't as single as he claimed, and I wasn't about to be someone's other woman. Should I ask him about her or just let it go and walk away? Could I be overreacting? I wasn't sure what to think, but I knew one thing. Austin had a secret, just like I did.

  *****

  ~Vol. 2 – The Visitor~

  The girl from the engagement picture had just called Austin’s phone. Andrea seemed like she must be someone really important to him if she was still calling him and he hadn’t taken that picture down. What kind of man would bring a woman into his house when he kept pictures of another woman wearing his ring on the wall? I was so curious about it, and still shocked, but how could I ask him when I barely knew the man? Sure, I had shared his bed and he had brough
t me to places I thought I may never go again, but that didn’t give me the right to question him or look at his phone and try to snoop around for the answer.

  When I heard him approaching from the bathroom, I quickly set his phone down and acted like I had just returned from downstairs. I was sitting on his bed in just his shirt and my boy shorts when he came into the room.

  “Feeling better?” I asked the question as innocently as I could. I was a little taken aback by the sight of him in just a towel. He was hard to resist and I wasn’t sure that I wanted to, despite his secrets.

  “Much better, thanks to you. You made me so happy last night. You’re a beautiful girl with curves in all the right places. I’m so glad you’re here. I still can’t get over how any man could let you go.”

  “You’re too sweet. I guess I’ll never know what made him leave, but I do know that I will get over it someday. Being with you last night was a huge step in the right direction. I just take things one day at a time.”

  “I’m glad I could help. There are things I need to get over, too. I may not have aired all of my dirty laundry, but I have a past, too.”

  “I don’t expect you to tell me everything. All I want is for you to respect me and be kind to me. I don’t want to play games or be used. If you’re planning on doing either one of those things, please tell me now. My heart can’t take another big break like that right now.”

  “Jamie, I have no intention of ever hurting you. I’d like to see you again and let things fall as they may. I can’t promise that it will be easy and perfect, but I do promise to be honest.”

  I was dying to ask him about Andrea, but I didn’t. Here he was promising honesty, so it was the perfect time to ask him about Andrea. Did I really want to know?